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[08 Nov 2004|07:43pm] |
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yeah im probably not gonna update for a while.. no point. </3
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[03 Nov 2004|02:58pm] |
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well today was okay up until like 2nd hr. mrs murray is the biggest bitch EVER after class ends.. probably a good 30 seconds after the bell rings she gives us FUCKING homework! so there... that put me in a bad mood... so Im pretty pissed off and 3rd hr is going okay til ISAAC fucking falls asleep so ms ryntz gives us homework... then 4th hr ms fabrizio is the biggest lame ass baby in the entire world, people dont listen.. so what? give their asses referels and be done with it. god. 5th hr mr suarez needs to get a clue meanwhile all day im hearing about bush being a bad president..wen he isnt. at all. so if you want to kno why i think that then ask, cuz its a good reason. anyways i go to 6th hr which is my fav and ms mclean says shes not gonna be there for 2 days and im sad :( and then she gives us another essay! and then deneen opens her big ass mouth about bush and me n jake nagi were like "fuck you" in somewhat more civilized words, me n aaron were discussing the war and we both agreed that we would go fight, we would have no problem with it. so we're cool :) then i get on the bus and chris and jon are harassing sasha once again, so i move next to liza and jon gets in my way... by this time my ass is pretty TICKED OFF so im yelling at him. and he knows to back off. so then chris trys to grab my backpack- and i completely snap. i was about to get up and beat the living shit out him. they think they "know" who they are dealing with....but they have no idea. well... I hope today gets better. leave sum comments 2 make it better <3
muchos amor
~MaNdA
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[02 Nov 2004|02:31pm] |
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well today was fun... nikki stayed over last nite so we went to mcdonalds and stuff it was great. ne ways im all alone now, and super bored..i really want to see a movie tonight! ne ways. leave me sum comments <3
love you hot stuff ;)
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[29 Oct 2004|03:19am] |
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I thought I could trust you
I thought you were different
But I was wrong
Your just like him
In every way I could possibly imagine
My heart crys out in pain
Just for you to notice me &
Aknowledge that I'm there
"Forget what others tell you"
You always seemed to say
"Hes not good enough, not in any way"
But I defended you, stupidly & dumb
My heart can take all your pain
I've become so numb
Your words cut like a jagged knife
This I know for sure
Everything you've said to me
Has all been just a lie
Im angry, hurt, and confused
This I can't deny
So I say again
With all my proven strength
You really are, in everyway, just like him
<3 leave sum comments :(
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[28 Oct 2004|03:30pm] |
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well today was interesting. my lovely neighbor andy drove me to school *cuz my dumb ass was wearing a skirt*.. so i didnt want to freeze but we got to school so f*n early. dude it was like 6:50...wow, so i had nothing betta ta do than talk to ms siems. i kno im so f*n cool. so then 1st hr- gay as usual
2nd hr- i fucking hate ms murray, shes sucha dumb bitch and she needs to start teaching me cuz im gettin a c so my ass is gonna be grounded. 3rd hr-used to be my fav but not ne more. its nice seein kennedy, shaun, merc, bori, and sonya but thats it. I hate seeing cole. it just makes me uncomfortable. 4th hr- my bestest friend aaron is in that class so its all good 5th hr- gay as hell 6th hr-im lovin it, i got him in it and aaron. wut more can a girl ask fer? oh DENEEN!! ... shes cool too. well today alex was supposed to tell him that I like him, and i havent talked to her yet so im not sure wuts goin on. kinds scared tho, thats for sure. Okay, so I like 2 people... *HIM* and my exboyfriend Brandon... Brandon dont kno yet, so if hes gonna read this.. then obviously he'll figure it out. aww antonio told me i looked good today in 6th hr, it made me smile.. and i decided im gonna write my character sketch about aaron!
I talked to Derek today ...
FaDeD xFaIrYtAlE: dont you miss me?
Ikeftball88: sure
what a hoe! hehe. I love you derek.
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[25 Oct 2004|05:43pm] |
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...Well my weekend was actually pretty fun.
Friday*went to beccas house and we went up to her football game *SO BORING* but i saw Danis baby SEAN hes a hott one. and then we went back to beccas and watched movies it was pretty great
Saturday*Becca phillips came over after bowling and we watched Jay n Silent Bob Strikeback and hung out with Derek n talked to Tony on the fone. EW derek i cant believe you told AARONS DAD that it was me who called. how gay.
Sunday*went to my lil cousins birthday... i didnt get to see Ashley, hopefully i will soon. I miss her, shes the greatest sister ever :)
leave sum comments <33
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[17 Oct 2004|03:58pm] |
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if youve Done it? X it
[x] been drunk.
[ ] smoked pot.
[x] kissed someone.
[x] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[x] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[x] been in a fist fight.
[ ] broken a bone
[ ] got hit by a car.
[x] snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested. . .
[ ] gone in a mosh pit.
[ ] stole something from your school.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] went on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[x] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.
[ ] skipped school.
[x] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] lost your sibling.
[x] played 'clue'
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating.
[x] cheated on a bf/gf.
[x] been cheated on.
[x] had ur tonsils out.
[ ] had a car.
[ ] Totaled a car
Do you...
[x] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[x] hate yourself.
[ ] think youre attractive.
[ ] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music
[ ] listen to underground hip hop
[x] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock
[x] listen to country.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[ ] isten to techno.
[x] have hobbies
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[x] get good grades.
[x]play an instrument.
[x] have slippers
[x] wear boxers
[x] wear black eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color pink.
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[x] have long hair
[ ] have short hair.
[x] have a cell phone.
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager
Are you...
[x] ugly
[ ] pretty.
[x] ok.
[ ] Handsome.
[x] bored.
[ ] happy.
[ ] bilingual.
[ ] Hawaiian.
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Filipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] British.
[x] white.
[ ] black.
[x] mexican.
[ ] puerto rican.
[ ] asian.
[x] short.
[ ] tall
[x] realistic
[ ] sick
[ ] mad
[x] lazy.
[x] single.
[ ] taken.
[ ] looking.
[ ] not looking.
[x] talking to someone.
[x] IMing someone.
[x] scared to die.
[ ] horny
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy.
[ ] annoyed.
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[ ] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[ ] in your pjs.
[ ] ticklish
[x] listening to music
[x] a virgin
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| ...I Love Him |
[17 Oct 2004|03:39pm] |
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well Friday he was supposed to come over but yeah he had to babysit his little sister at the last minute. so derek kristin and I got a little tipsy minus the derek part. lol. if that makes ne sense..! so saturday I spent my sweetest day with Steff, Derek, Steve, n ChucK! we saw ladder 49 then we went to umm baskin robbins with sexy mr hartner. :) then we came back to my house and i called him. ;) he answerd the fone "amanda i love you" so i was happy all night and he said other stuff that isnt suitable for internet viewing. I miss him so much. but hey i get to see him tomorrow. anyways my padre is goin out of town on tuesday til thursday (party at amandas) ;) so yeah leave sum comments.
<33 mandy
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| Breakaway |
[13 Oct 2004|02:57pm] |
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She sits alone in her room
Patiently waiting by the phone
Anticipating a phone call
That will surely never come
Her feelings have grown stronger
That she cannot deny
She loves him more and more
Even whene he makes her cry
Hes a careless whisperer
That should often be silenced
Because his words cut like a knife
Sharper than any blade ever could
*Sometimes I just write shit like that because I dont know where he stands, and I always think he'll never call me and to my suprise he does. Maybe it could happen after all?
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[11 Oct 2004|06:08pm] |
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Today wasn't what I was expecting. He wasn't there, & yet hes the only reason I showed up this morning. I feel sicker than ever, I was dizzy all day & I felt as if I would fall the very second I chose to rise up. I wish he was there, it would have helped, not much.. but a little bit. Enough for me to hold out thru the day, I was so sick I left after lunch. But I talked to him when I got home. I miss him </3. I need some closure yet again in my littler meaningless life. I feel sometimes as if I'm just not wanted. And when I walk into a room and it slowly gets quiet, I know they were just talking about me. I can't get away from it. How do you think that makes me feel? Do you realize that I have feelings too? Did it even occur to you, or even cross your mind? Do you have an ounce of sympathy? Or even a heart? My god, I can't take it anymore. Someone take me away.
(*LeAvE sUm CoMmEnTs*)
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| HoMeCoMiNg 2004 |
[10 Oct 2004|12:26pm] |
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Homecoming 2004 was pretty good.
The day started out kind of boring I went to my cuzins soccer game and then kristin came over and katie too.. we did our own hair and mine sucked but then me n kristin went out to dinner and it was fun. then i got there and there he was. aww hes so hott. well ne ways he was nite but he did make a point to come talk to me and tell me that they had broken up, needless to say i was very happy all night,Im scared it isn't goin to work out. It probably wont. But im done being negative. I love you. leave sum comments
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| i love him |
[07 Oct 2004|06:51pm] |
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i talked to him today...
i love you
...manda----leave comments
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[01 Oct 2004|04:26pm] |
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well guys its official, i've pretty much fallen hard this time. <3 comment, lots of times.
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[20 Sep 2004|05:29pm] |
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well today was pretty boring, i had to collect homework from the teachers, but at lunch i had a lot of fun talking to gina. i love her! Gina*we need to hang out soon! well thats about it. lol
leave sum pretty comments
<3 manda
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[18 Sep 2004|09:24am] |
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wow last nite fucking rocked! well krystal picked me up at like 650 so we got to the game late but it was all good. so wen we got there we tried to look for scott cuz we havent seen him in 3 yrs! so we went over there and he like didnt even look at me.. so i was sad. then we saw rande n jake and i got a hug! woot. okay ne ways. then we hung out with amanda miller and her n krystal went sumwhere and me,rande, n david were walking around (*thats right,im a pimp*) lol. jk so then i saw scott again and it was hug after hug! hes so adorable *i think i mite have a little crush* lmao. so then I walked around with derek n scott.(*pimp again*). wow. I talked to Chuck for like only a minute, it was pretty sad :( but dude.. I SAW THEO. I missed him so much! so yah it was a f*n awesome nite. and i saw Awse too. whatta hottie. dammnnnn. well leave sum comments
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X. Starting Time: 11:38
X. Name: Amanda
X. Nicknames: Mandy,Manda,Blueberry love muffin, audz
X. School: shhs
X. Eyes: brown
X. Height: 5'4"
X. Siblings: 1 brother Anthony and 2 sisters Asia, n Ashley
X. Ever helped somebody cheat?: sure
X. Missed school b/c it was raining: no
X. Set any body part on fire for amusement: no
X. Kept a secret from everyone: yah
X. Had an imaginary friend?: in like 1st grade
X. Wanted to hook up with a friend: sure
X. Cried during a Flick: the notebook
X. Had a crush on a teacher: no
X. Ever thought an animated character was hot: no
X. Ever at anytime owned a New Kids on the Block tape: yah
X. Prank called someone: yeah..
X. Been on stage: yupp a ton of times too
------------------FAVORITES------------
X. Shampoo: fructis
X. Colors: pink n black
X. Day/Night: nighttt
X. Summer/Winter: summer!!!
X. Online Smiley: ;)
X. Known the longest of your friends: Becca n Tara
X. Name your best friend(s): nikki,tara,becca,kristin,katie,derek,mike,AARON,merc
X. Who's the loudest: Becca
X. Who's the shyest: kristin
X. Who do you go to for advice: nikki
X. Who do you cry with?: kristin
----------IN THE LAST 2 Weeks------------
X. Cried: yeah
X. Cut your hair: no
X. Worn a skirt: yeah
X. Been mean: yupp
X. Been sarcastic: duhh i live for that shit
X. Missed someone: yeahh a ton of ppl
X. Hugged someone: yupp
X. Fought with your parents: yeah!
X. Wished upon a star: nope
X. Laughed until you cried: YES
X. Played Truth or Dare: nah
X. Watched a sunrise/sunset: no
X. Went to the beach at night: no
X. Read a book for fun: no
X. Ate a meal: yah
X. Are you lonely?: i miss him
X. Are you happy: not currently
X. Are you talking to someone online: kristin
------DO YOU BELIEVE IN....-----
X. God/Devil: yup
X. Love: yah
X. The Closet Monster: no
X. The Big Bang Theory?: wut!
X. Heaven/Hell: yup
X. Superstitions: yah
X. What is your name? Amadna
X. Who named you?: my mom
X. Backstreet Boys or N Sync?: nsync
X. When was the last time you showered? this mornin
X. What was the last thing that you said online? yahh...:(
X. What is right next to you?: the remote
X. What is your computer desk made of? wood
X. What was the last thing that you ate? fritos
X. What is your favorite state?: florida
X. Where do you want to go on your honeymoon?: dont care
X. How many buddies do you have on your list: 199
X. How's the weather right now?: cold
X. What did you do last night?: went to caits
X. What's the best thing that you find about the opposite sex? their smell
X. Favorite hair color in the opposite sex: blonde..
X. Pizza or ice cream? pizza
X. How do YOU eat an Oreo? i dont
X. Dream car? honda civic or evolution
X. What do you want to be when you grow up? marine biologist
X. What are your future goals?: dunno
X. Favorite music?: punk rock
X. Least favorite time of the year: hm.. winter
X. Drive Fast or slow?: the speed limit!
X. If you could change your name, what would it be?: Ariana
X. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: no
X. What will your first son's name be?:Pacey
X. Favorite drink?: dk
X. Do you like scary or happy movies better?: scary
X. Lust or Love?: Love
X. Do you consider cheerleading a sport?: yeah ...i was a cheerleader
X. What's your favorite sport? basketball
X. When's your birthday? 8-26-89
X. How old will u be?: 16
X. Time done? 11:49
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| hmm idk! |
[11 Sep 2004|11:10pm] |
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well guess what ... I like someone :o thats so crazy. well if you would like to know.. just asK! how fun.. silly me for thinking that you guys care! lol. anyways, im at my grandmas and we were playing texas hold'em and i won!..then alex made me lose to my grandma. gosh. well today was okay.. I guess. I got to see alex. so it was good. but yah.. ill write more later. im kind of tired
happy birthday caitlin :) lps forever
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She Speaks From Her Heart
And Tells Him When Hes *Wrong*
She Holds Him Close
Fearing She'll Loose Him For Too Long
Her Heart B r e a k s
As He SmIlEs
When All A.l.o.n.g......
None Of It Was Worth Her ~While~
Day By Day
She Waited By The Phone
When All Along
He Was Never Home
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(We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield
woh woh woh woh woh woh woh woh wohhh
We are strong, no one can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long, both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield
you're making me go, than making me stay
Why do you hurt me so bad?
It would help me to know, do I stand in your way
Or am I the best thing you've had?
Believe me, believe me, I can't tell you why
But I'm trapped by your love, and I'm chained to your side
We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield
We are strong, no one can tell us we're wrong
Searchin' our hearts for so long, both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield
We're losing control, will you turn me away
Or touch me deep inside?
And if all this gets old, will it still feel the same?
There's no way this will die
But if we get much closer, I could lose control
And if your heart surrenders, you'll need me to hold)
I LoVe YoU
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[05 Sep 2004|12:13am] |
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well this is my first entry in my new lj. how fun. well this is by far the worst weekend of my life
*Friday~went shopping..got nothin and then went to Nikkis. her merc n I were really bored so we called up Bobby and we went over there.. mind you it was 10.. so then we hang out with bobby til like 12:50 when her dad calls.. and we're SCREWED! so we hafta run home.. by the time we get half way there.. he calls and says hes gonna pick us up.. so we have to run back near bobbys... but merc told him wrong directions so we had to run around the sub trying to figure out where he would b. so we got to the front of the sub and these guys pull up and ask us what we're running from.. :/ and it was scary.. so then he picks us up and he makes me n merc go home.. fun stuff.
*Saturday~the most boring day of my life.. I woke up at about 1 and ate.. then I went online and watched movies and practically did nothing all day.. how fun. I havent heard from Alex all day.. I miss him n I think I made a mistake by ending things with him.. I think Im like bi-polar, because Im different like every other day. I love him.. I really do. But part of me was scared of commitment and what I felt for him.. I realize this now.. but I think it might be too late. I just wish he would call. He went upnorth this weekend.. and I havent heard from him since his driveup there.. I hope hes okay..
well love some pretty comments. <3, hope you like the new Livejournal.
Lotsa Love,
MaNdA
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